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so i actually quit both my jobs. insane! if it all works out, i'll end up taking the entire summer off and buying a van upon my return to vancouver. i bought my burningman ticket the other day too...

i'm terrified and stoked all at the same time about my pending trip into the interior. i haven't camped in a long time, and it's thick in the wild. initially, the plan was just outside terrace, bc... but now there's talk of staying a month if the money is good... and even chasing the snow up north as far as the yukon border.

i was thinking about how since i returned from asia 2 years ago (TWO FUCKING YEARS? time flies...) that my life has been without risks and leaps of faith. not to take anything away from the roadtrip after burningman last year.... but this is different... it's what i'm doing for my money. i've been relying on kitchens for a decade now as my income and i fucking hate it. i've been looking for an out for a loooong time. i just keep hoping everything will work out because if it doesn't i have no idea what the rest of the year will be like. all my carefully laid out plans will be shattered if this trip is all for naught. but, as i mentioned..... the risks and leaps of faith.... makes life more exciting...

change is good.

also, what the bloody hell.... i love finding gems of music from the past. tom petty, where have you been all my life?

also, as a final note/edit.... i have a tumblr now.
http://fortlife.tumblr.com/
feel free to follow

mushroom picker
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finally, something worthwhile to post.

so. i was woken by a phone call this morning from my friend matt in regards to a get rich quick scheme. after hanging up, i thought that i wouldn't do it, but as the day has gone by it's made more and more sense. a drive up into the interior to a little place called Terrace, BC. going into the woods, into bear country... to pick mushrooms. to pick these guys: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Morchella
i will make, depending on how much i hustle, between $800-$1,200 a day. i'll be doing this for 2-3 weeks. it will be brutal, i'll hate it by the end, i'll miss the start of summer, i'll miss my birthday and i'll have to quit both of my jobs to make it happen, SO IT BETTER WORK OUT!

if it does, i can take the rest of the summer off and be a total beach bum.... and double the money i've already saved up over the past two years.... and instead of doing just south america or just europe, do BOTH.

well.... quitting the first job tomorrow! wow....

alone in this house
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weird. i finally asked my room mate to move out(and now she's is gone! celebrate!) because she drove me absolutely nuts. that and she was so utterly uninspiring to be around. i enjoyed the idea of having a place to myself again, but as i am about to go to bed.... i was going to leave my bedroom dooor open. (i figure living alone, it doesn't matter if i sleep with the door open, or go to the bathroom with the door open) then as i started back to my bed, i felt a strange urge to CLOSE IT..... i wonder why.

i've felt ghosts in this house before, and i'd imagine that doors won't be much of a help in keeping them out of rooms, but still. anyways. i'm going to go to bed for real this time.....

...with the door closed.

something needs to replace my old vice
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i wonder who actually still uses this site.
in the past few months i've been practising abstinence. i've been trying to regulate the amount of everything i do in excess.
-drinking (went 1 month, nothing, now drink once a week. been drunk 4 times in 2 months)
-drugs (same pretty much)
-facebook (deleted it. it feels really good. however, here i am back on livejournal. i've always liked LJ better anyways, it's just that i guess FB has the advantage of easier photo sharing and networking etc//. now that i think about it, i like the days of LJ where social networking was just rearing it's ugly head to the public at large with friendster.... and i could write in here more candidly. no eggshells.)
-smoking (although i unfortunately still engage in smoking when i get really drunk. luckily that's only been 4 times in 2 months. gotta figure out a way to stop smoking when i drink.)

i'm saving soooo much money with this plan of abstinence. i make 4 paychecks a month and 3 of them go directly into a savings account. the other pays rent and my phone bill. i survive on biweekly tips. sooooo disiplined.


the money that is getting jammed into my savings is for a trip to either south america or europe. trip is tentatively planned for next spring. also. between now and then, another trip down to burning man. 5th year. whew..... i wonder if i will ever stop going? last year was a good one though so as long as it keeps staying good.....

i have also read over many of my old entries in the past few days. i.... really was an attention whore wasn't i? reading my old entries got me nostalgic, a bit depressed.... for different reasons. depressed because i miss some of the people i can see are no longer in my life. depressed also because i used to be alot more carefree, but i guess that's the penalty of growing up a bit. depressed, finally, because i think anytime when i read stuff i wrote over 5 years ago, i can't help but think of how much an idiot i was. buuuuut, that means i've improved so that's a good thing.

anyways. i'm done with this now. i think 'll throw on a movie. BBC life doc maybe. it's beautiful and i highly recommend it!

lousy 2nd job
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my other job has cut my hours! i work 4 days a week there but it only equals out to about 20 hours. the hours i do work are the evening too, so the day is always wasted! i can't save up for a trip like this.... i booked off half a month for xmas and if they don't give me the time off i'm quitting. if they give me the time off i'm probably going to quit anyways. the most poorly run establishment i've worked for.

WHAT IS IT 2012 ALREADY?
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of course life rolls on. i can't actually see ythe screen. i'm typing from a hole in the ground.


evrything as it is, as it should be. as i ask for a pair of mittens, i shall receive a pair of mittens.
the world reveals itself in mysterious ways.

i am not guarded by an angel, i am guarded by my own self assurance. to me it is simple logistics.


...i must slumberrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

status update
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i remember when writing on the internet was more than just a status update.

i guess i saw this coming
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it was a weekend that had me excited but i guess i saw it coming: after that excitement wears down, you will be bored of this city and realise why you left.

AHHHH! and finding a job at subeez should have been easy but it's being dragged out in a sketchy manner.
i'm probably going to leave after burning man, as opposed to before when i was thinking of staying til decemeber. then again.... it's very early. all i'm saying is the vibe is not here right now?

hello... anyone out therE?
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i usually use this to surf communities now.... most people on my page don't update anymore. just wondering if there's anyone out there that still reads livejournal.

i did my southeast asia tour and had a great time.... if you want to see pictures check out my facebook

haunted
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this is the 3rd morning in a row that i've woken up abruptly and been really awake and afraid to come out from under my covers. i think my room is haunted.

i know nothing is out to get me, it at least maybe just wants to say "HELLO!" but it scares me and i want it to stop....................................... =(

ET the punch-out!
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unhealthy
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i'm starting to get a very unhealthy fascination with sarah palin, and the amount of suckage she exudes whenever she opens her mouth. is is that the other way around?

anyways, she is frightening. i often ask myself, is this a joke? is it for real? at any rate, it's provided me with endless youtube entertainment, so thank you for THAT sarah palin.

palin
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esoteric agenda
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not a bad movie, if i do say so. check it out! just google it

thailand
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so, my plan is finallly set in motion! i have a set date of departure from vancouver. my final day of work is slated for the last day of november and from there, i proceed to pack up everything i still want and send it home and sell everything i don't need anymore. on december 13th i fly to toronto for crapmas with landon, celebrate new years aswell and then it's off to mother fucking bangkok, thailand. we relax there and adventure through cambodia for a few months when she decides to come back to vancouver while i stick around and continue exploring. when i'm sick and tired of all of that, i'm probably going to japan for a short while. because that's pretty expensive, i won't stay much longer than a week and then i'm off to australia to work for a while.... make some money back hopefullly.
off course i'm not ruling out the possibilities off india, china, tibet, nepal, new zealand, indonesia, etc etc
....but that's the main plan anyways. if you ever wondered what happened to "evad" he's been a cheap ass and and saving ridiculous amounts of money on a cook's wage.
hopefully, i'll be able to make it back to north america in time to attend burning '09 after a 2 year hiatus. the theme seems too good to pass up and alot of awesome people i know seem to agree.


so that's me at the moment. oh, one more thing.... i'm moving in with grey for the last few months of my time here... i hope i get to tell brad before he reads it here, lol.

anyways. bye for now


PS I'M NAKED

what the hell is this???
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http://community.livejournal.com/randompictures/4280174.html

life is... good?
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life IS good, so what's the catch?

i've been more calm and relaxed through the past weekend. i think the vacation really helped and a few people have helped me realize that when they pointed it out... i've let a few cares go.

...it seemed on my bus home that i had more thoughts to say.
but,

why dwell on it? i suppose i'll just ride it out...?

chuck norris
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what's the deal with chuck norris? who cares? shut up about chuck norris.

lolz
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stolen from frankie
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